Two weeks and some days in the hospital, in and out like I fucking live there and a person who just fucking ruined something, somehow great by being the type of person who I was AFRAID WILL BECOME IN THE BEGINNING. Sickeningly-unfortunately-predictably TRUE.
Thats it. It took me just that to go out of my fucking mind. How I wish I can rip apart my chest to show him how much this is hurting. To say is so impossible that it gave me a point blank. BLANKNESS to the point I can just stare into an empty space with just uncalled for and unappreciated tears. Womens weakness. At least its there to see.
UNAPPRECIATED. That's a word that kept knocking me out continously. A word that always catch me by surprise. Hey, check this; I did not know being appreciative comes within racial territory. Perhaps age-wise? So being younger gives you the right to be so ignorance? So stupid? Pardon my sarcastic remark. I'M JUST FUCKING SORRY, BUT BEING UNAPPRECIATIVE AND BEING SO MOTHER FUCKING OBLIVIOUS OVER- AND OVER. AIN'T THAT A LITTLE TOO SADISTIC?? NO- SERIOUSLY. It's just that, witnessing my fucking miserable past with that idiot, I THOUGHT you'd be coming to my mercy with something better to offer. But guess what? You picked me up and threw me back on the ground. HOW ABOUT THAT? Hm..
YOU SHOULD'VE THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO BE MAN ENOUGH BEFORE YOU STARTED THIS SHIT! YOU. SHOULDN'T. HAVE. STARTED. THIS. SHIT.
-- It takes two, I know, but I blame you.
Ahem- On a lighter note, I hope Spain won EURO '08. 25 years, show me some miracle baby.
In her,
Naddy.
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